Do you look at a glass as either half empty or half
full? For example, a baseball player is
more likely to describe his 250 batting average as - “I get a hit one out of
four times at bat”, rather than - “I make an out three out of every four times
I come to the plate.” Pitchers too have
a tough time describing pitches that miss their location and end up right in
the center of the plate. Chicago Cubs
relief pitcher Bob Patterson described his pitch which the Cincinnati Reds'
Barry Larkin hit for a game-winning home run: "It was a cross between a screwball and a change-up. It was a screw-up."
You don't have to be a baseball player to know what it feels
like to strike out. Right? Yes, there are moments, there are days when
we are not at our best. Anyone here know
what I’m talking about? When our best
is not enough, when our efforts come up short, times of personal failure, of
not reaching our personal expectations or goals, of disappointing ourselves or
others, of regrets, of mistakes that hurt others, of not fulfilling our best
intentions, of guilt over something we did or forgot to do, of behavior we are
not proud of. Yes, we all fall short.
“If only I could turn
back the clock; if only I had asked for help; if only I hadn’t spent so much
money; if only I had thought it through better; if only I had been there for my
friend; if only I had told the truth; if only I had made a better decision; if
only I had communicated better with my children; if only I had been there when
my family needed me or worked harder at my marriage.” Millions of Americans attend support and
recovery groups to deal with just such realities.
Falling short, failures, cut both ways; there are acts of
commission and omission – we do something wrong or we fail to take action, to
do anything at all. We live in a culture
which worships success and shuns failure.
We don’t like to be reminded of our faults and foibles and how often we
succumb to them. We tend to hide or
deny our regrets. Failure brings shame
in our culture.
Deeply entrenched and painful memories are some of the
hardest things to deal with in life. If
we allow them too, they can consume us and take over our lives by controlling
our thoughts, attitudes, emotions and behavior.
They can invade our nights with sleeplessness. They can adversely affect
our health. Dwelling on our mistakes,
becoming obsessed with some personal failure, can hurt us or even destroy us.
The story in the Bible of the prodigal son comes to mind,
this younger brash son utterly failed his family and brought shame upon the family name. Fortunately, the story has a happy
ending. Another is a disciple named Peter. Peter oused charisma. He was an intense, dedicated, passionate,
natural born leader. Recall that it was
Peter who defended Jesus in the Garden
of Gethsemane by slicing
off the ear of a Roman soldier. If there
was anyone who truly loved Jesus, who was truly devoted to him, it was
Peter.
And yet Jesus spoke these unforgettable words to Peter. “This very night you will fall away on
account of me, for it is written: and
the flock will be scattered.” Peter replied, “Even if all fall away on account
of you, I never will.” Jesus answered:
“I tell you the truth, this very night, before the rooster crows, you will
disown me three times.” But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I
will never disown you.”
Now Peter was sitting
out in the courtyard, and a servant girl came to him. “You also were with Jesus
of Galilee ,” she said. 70But he
denied it before them all. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said. 71Then
he went out to the gateway, where another girl saw him and said to the people
there, “This fellow was with Jesus of Nazareth .”
72He denied it again, with an oath: “I don’t know the man!” Then some bystanders said to Peter: “Certainly you are also one of them, your
accent betrays you.” Peter swore an
oath, “I do not know the man.” At that
moment the rooster crowed. Then Peter
remembered what Jesus had said. And he
went out and wept bitterly. It was
undoubtedly the lowest moment of Peter’s life.
What can we learn from this story? First, remember that everyone fails! You are not alone. Failure is universal. Everyone disappoints themselves or others in
life. You do, I do. It is humbling to look in the mirror and
admit I blew it. Today Disney Corp rakes in billions from
merchandise, movies and theme parks around the world, but Walt Disney himself
had a rough start. He was fired by a newspaper editor because, “he lacked
imagination and had no good ideas.” After that, Walt Disney started a number of
businesses that didn’t last too long and ended with bankruptcy and failure. He kept plugging along, however, getting
support from his brother, and eventually found a recipe for success that
worked.
Never in his wildest imagination did Peter ever think he
would let Jesus down and deny knowing him.
The Bible says: For all have
sinned and fall short of the glory of God.
Have you ever not spoken up or stood up for your faith when
you had the opportunity? Was it because
of peer pressure or because you were afraid?
If so, then you have walked in Peter's shoes. Yes, Peter feared for his
life. To deny knowing Jesus is a major
failing. Peter knew it and most of us
here today know it as well. Can you
think of other ways you have let God down?
I can think of ways I have.
Peter simply lost his nerve and succumbed in a weak moment. Has that ever happened to you? Evangelist Billy Graham, who has preached
the gospel to more people than anyone in history, when asked after he retired
if he had any regrets said: “I wish I had spent more time with each of my
children.”
Second, the story reminds us that failure is not final. Failing doesn't mean you are a failure. There is a huge chasm between failing at
something and being a failure. Never
confuse the two. Failure isn’t
fatal. In the Bible, King David failed
morally when he committed adultery with Bathsheba. The prophet Jonah failed to obey God when he
refused to go to Nineveh
to bring God's word and instead ran away from God. Moses failed in leadership when the
Israelites whom he delivered out of Egypt turned away from God and
worshiped idols in the wilderness.
And yet, these men eventually became some of the greatest
leaders in Israel . God used them for great purposes in His plan
for the Jews. Like the apostle Peter,
they knew failure, they had regrets, they had to deal with guilt, they knew
what it felt like to let themselves down or let others down or let God
down. But you can also see from the
success they had in life, that their failures did not get the best of them. These failures didn't define them. It didn’t thwart God's purposes and plans for
their lives. Your failures, my failures,
won’t stop God from using us for His glory.
We must never allow other people to define us or label us by
those times when we are not at our best.
We must not do it to ourselves either.
Former first lady Barbara Bush's press secretary, Anna Perez said there
was a time when she dreamed not of having a White House office, but simply of
having a roof over her head. When Perez
was in the fifth grade she came home from school one day and found her mother,
two brothers and two sisters sitting on the street. They had been evicted. "Mom had to split up the family." "I
lived with my fifth-grade teacher for a while. But no matter how bad things
got, I remember what my mother kept telling us:
“We are not defined by our circumstances. We are defined by our ability to overcome our
circumstances.”
God wants us to learn and change and grow from regrets and
personal disappointments. God's word is
– “I love you, you belong to me, your
failures are not final nor fatal.” We
can choose to dwell on them, to wallow in them, to allow them to cause us to
spiral downward or we trust in God and pray for God's power and grace, we can
reach out for help from others, to overcome them, to triumph over them, to find
hope and light out of them.
Third, remember, God is a forgiving God. God is a merciful God. God seeks to restore us when we let
ourselves, others or God down. Even
though Peter had absolutely failed Jesus as a friend and a disciple, Jesus gave
him another chance, another opportunity.
Why? Because the God you and I
worship is gracious, merciful, loving, and forgiving. Jesus met and accepted Peter after his
resurrection. Jesus forgave Peter, he
welcomed him. Jesus didn’t reject Peter
even though Peter rejected Jesus. Jesus
told Peter to feed his sheep, which meant to lead his church into the
future.
Recall these promises of the Bible: “Return, faithless Israel ,’
declares the Lord, ‘I will frown on you no longer, for I am merciful,’ declares
the Lord. ‘I will not be angry forever.”
And another from scripture: “My dear children, I write this to you so
that you will not sin. But if anybody
does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense, Jesus Christ,
the Righteous One.”
The final lesson is humility and learning to forgive
yourself. Humility comes from going to
someone you have let down or hurt or disappointed and asking for their
forgiveness. To say you are sorry. And if restitution is needed, you make it. You can't guarantee how they will respond, but
Jesus wants you to take this course of action.
And further, it is essential to ask God to help you to
forgive yourself. To believe you are
worth forgiving. To believe you are
forgivable. We have a tendency to hold
ourselves more accountable than we do others, to hold ourselves to a higher
standard than we hold others.
Years ago, it took me a long time to forgive myself because
I was wracked with guilt and the fear of what might have happened, when I was
late picking up our son Matthew from elementary school when he was about 7
years old. I was late because I was at
church packing up a van for a ski trip with a bunch of our church's high school
kids. When I pulled up in front of the
elementary school, the gates were shut, the street deserted, and Matthew was
standing alone on the sidewalk crying, afraid I had forgotten him.
Dwelling on personal failings robs you of the energy you
need to be the person God has created you to be. There is a difference between
forgiving yourself and forgetting what you did.
Forgiveness is forgetting in spite of remembering. It is being set free from the emotional
baggage of a painful memory.
Turn to God and ask for God’s power and grace to help you
find the power to forgive yourself. Ask
God to help you regain your faith in yourself, to restore your sense of value,
worth and self-confidence. For until
you are able to forgive yourself, you will never know inner-peace, peace within
yourself and peace with God.
Jesus forgave Peter.
And the apostle Peter’s failure proved to be a profound turning point in
his life, for out of his brokenness came greatness. In his lifetime, he won many to Christ and
continued to be a loyal and courageous follower of Jesus until his death as a
martyr.
We cannot turn back the clock and undo something we
did. But we can resolve to open our
hearts to the Lord and experience God's forgiving and healing peace. When we truly repent, God is willing and
ready to forgive you, to forget what you have done, to accept you, and to
restore you to a righteous relationship and to the adventure of living the life
God has given you. Amen!